sometimes u just get a small ray of hope and then build a whole castle around it and then that ray of hope is surrounded by clouds and castle comes crashing down and with it goes all the positive energy which u hae got from that single ray.
I hope that clouds will just go away tomm and my castle will be reality and not dream!!!!

Friends

I visited shradh's blog today and got this idea of writing about my friends and friendship. I have been quite lucky in the sense that I make friends quite easily or say God has always placed me among good people with whom I can connect .

But I don't have any childhood friends. Maybe because i spent childhood in a village where everyone used to envy me coz i always topped the class( andhon mein kana raja :) ) or maybe i had better access to facilities n all.School time went like that. not in touch with any of my school mates.

Actually got to understand this beautiful term ''Friendship'' quite late.....during college days...had instant special connection with these three wonderful girls and four years in hostel just flew away.

After leaving college I had never thought I'll find (good, best, just) friends in abundance..During Satyam days...be it my PG or ELTP batch or CIGNA ODC(and our beloved paigah...which will always hold a special place in my heart) i have met so many wonderful ppl,had so many wonderful moments that I jst remember the good old days and forget all the bad days if ever I had

Everything ....searching homes,paying bills, 7 girls and sometime more managing to get ready at time using a single washroom, sunday maggi sessions, midnight laghter dauras, bitching, cribbing, visits to centrals, shopper's stop, sindhi colony, food world, cooking n washing utensils....n list will just go on....was so much fun....thinking of all those things brings a smile on my face...n this is possible just because of my wonderful friends..

CIGNA ODC too gave me some of my best friends :)

While moving out of hyderabad I thought..Now that I am grown up n have loads of frnds..it will be difficult to make new friends n any best friend....bt fortunately I was totally wrong... My new company and this new place (Noida which i didn't like initially) gave me equally amazing friendships. I met this group where each one cares for the other and always have a rocking time...be it gup sessions at shipra, going for adventure trips, just lazing around AC in summers, TAKE tea's, baddy days, then walking sessions, indoor games...each one is a moment to chersih for life time....I had my share of bad days too....bt there were always my frnds to support me.....Even if they are nt around...they are just a call away...

And then there are ppl in office too which I would love to call my friends(very good indeed) and not just colleagues to give me company in every laugh and hear my cribbing too....

Though u move ahead in life....contacts with old friends cut off...u make new friends and life just goes on...but those special moments are there safe in one corner of heart.....and I am lucky to have lots of those moments :)

Was off to home for a couple of days and then busy in office too..
and realized one thing which i know very well and have applied all these years to my life but I seem to have forgotten for quite sometime now..

I have got just one life and I will live it fully...always thanking God for what all I have got.
You are as lucky as happy you are!!!!

shopping

shopping is the favourite past time of any girl.....as we shop more, we feel the need to shop more as all the things in closet seem to be obsolete regardless of you have used them or not...every time u open the wardrobe, clothes tend to fall off but every morning the same 'aaj kya pehne?' question pops up and you don't find good clothes for that day

i was just wondering how would our life be if we can shop anything and everything...

I have this strange problem.....sometimes i just get irritated by some people and then this irritation just keeps on building more and more...

Then every small or big, good or bad habit of that person starts irritating me...and i can't control this irriatation......and situation just becomes out of control...

I realize that problem is not with other person but with me...But I can't help it...

BTW...I'm looking for a good word to describe this problem....so I'm leaving the subject line blank

Mission Life

Yesterday while coming back from home, I was thinking serious stuff....what is my mission? Till date I have not been able to identify the agenda, the dream of my life....the one thing for which I'll do everything.

Off late I have been keeping may decision pending...whenever I think about taking one decision...I just come back to one point...

Whenever I think

do an MBA....there is this thought.....i'll keep it pending till i get married...then we ll take a decision

Buy a Car - what for?? I live so close to my house...akele jaana bhi kahan hai...postpone it till i find someone in life

Buy a house - oh i don't knw which city I am going to settle down after marriage..so postpone it

So everything rounds up to one single decision......Is that the only happening thing left in life....What am I waiting for...one person who ll take decisions for me...

Deep inside...I know this approach is totally wrong....I should be doing whatever I want to do and don't wait for some prince charming on a white horse(I don't mean it literally)...

This was written in MARCH/FEB and I m posting it in November and my position is still the same