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Past two days have been kind of bad at work...wanting to react to a situation but not doing so in the anticipation that it's not going to help at all.....same old problem with me...just crying alone or cribbing in front of friends but not doing anything

Where will this approach take me? Am I being passive about what all is happening in life? or is this a thing which I should not be giving much importance to..

There was also a depression day during this week but becuase of entirely different reason..

Change

They say 'Change is the only constant thing in life'

But it has been a long time since I have been seeking for some change.

Year 2008 was very monotonous....Come to office daily, go back..have food and sleep....This is not the kind of life I want..

Here goes my wish list :-

I want to try new things

Visit new places(India and abroad)

Meet interesting people

Be involved in some groups which do something good for society

Invent something(Kind of unrealistic goal right now) for which I'll be remembered forever

Learn some form of dancing ( I can dance freestyle but a specific form)

Have a Slim body( when I don't have to think twice before eating)

Learn a Musical Instrument

Get rid of all the inhibitions which I have

Be a good speaker

Be passionate(rememeber my last post ;) )

Passion

Passion-

Dictionary meaning of this word is:

' feeling very strongly about a subject or person, usually referring to feelings of intense desire and attraction, be very passionate about something '

And people say if you want something you should be really passionate about it.
'Itni shiddat se tumhe paane ki chahat ki hai
ki har zarre ne tumse milane ki saazish ki hai'

But I am not passionate about anything. There are things or people in my life which I love a lot. Or there are things which make me feel happy but there is nothing in my life(any hobby or any person(except my family)) for which I'll go out of my way

There is nothing wrong in this but still at some times I feel am I dead or what...Why don't I feel very strong about anything....Am I alive?...I am not very vocal about feelings..... I don't get mad at wrong happenings.kind of adjust to any situation......Don't get angry with people(and even if I get, I tend to forget that very soon)

I don't want to be calm always...taking things on me everytime....or agree with ppl all the time(even when not agreeing..just pretend to have agreed)....i just want to give strong reactions sometime, do some mad things....



BTW....there were lots of I's in this post ;)

Image Shattering

Tried something new again--it's green tea...i liked it :) or at least i'll pretend that I like it... ;)

Anyway this post is not about my green tea experience

It's about image shattering....the other day I was watching this episode of HIMYM....where ppl ignore the irritating habits of others till the point someone points that habbit....n the same habit which was ignorable or cute a moment ago seems the central point of other person's exsistance....no matter how much you try to ignore...u tend to see that habbit only....

Same has happened with me a lot many times. There is this frnd of mine A who has a habbit of making me read her poems (that was acceptable till some time ago....bt now it irritates me as I'm in middle of something and forced to read and comment on that poem.....I was ok with all this till one of my frnd B told me that he is being troubled by A at any point of time...since then I also feel the same way)......though at times I feel bad for A that she is trusting and seeking my opinion and I'm behaving in an irrational Manner

Hope

''Kyon darein zindagi ki kya hoga ,kuch na hoga to tajurba hoga''

this one is from a frnd of mine....good read and good way to console someone who u knw have more chances of losing something

Bt can we apply that in our lives??

because whenever you embark on a new mission, try anything new you hope to complete that...and that hope of achieving something is what is motivating you to put your best foot forward and keep trying ...

IF WE KNW we are anywaying going to lose , can we jst keep trying the thing jst for the sake of experience...I won't

Experience is what matters when you acieve something...if you win....you knw why u have won , what right things you have done...ppl want to know the experince of the winner...not of the loser....AND when you are doing something , you don't do it for experience.....

life- from a confused mind

Life is a game which is on from the moment u know
Rules of this game are decided by society u live in and the paricipants of this game keep changing. the only constant player is you. You wish you could change the rules of this game or the players according to your convenience but that's not allowed....

Sometimes you wish you can play this game with same set of players....bt then their own game intends to take them to some new field and you are left with new players....and this continues...

you keep losing and winning the game at the same time

You think U have lost the game and the very next moment you realize that it's not the loss but the start of a new twist in the game.

And the moment u think you have won the game...chances are u'll realize that there is lot more left in the game.

And you can't quit the game at your own convenience...U have to keep playing till an unseen force take charge of the game

Life is a joke..keep laughing at it or it will try to make u cry. :)...this was told to me by a dear friend..

Life is a dream....
Life is a journey which you have to go thru u wish or not..
Life is a whiteboard which you fill with different colors

Life is a Garden which has its seasons of bloom and automn and new plants grow in this garden every season, fill it with so many flowers and fragrances....these flowers are nt there forever but the frangrance they bring with them lingers on and on........
Life is a movie but you can't edit the scenes from this movie
Life is a book where each chapter is a whole book in itself
Life is a collage of countless memories
Life is a poem by an unknown poet who is trying to have friendship with words
Life is a sequence of 5+2 days......u wait for 5 days to get over for those 2 days and then those 2 days jst fly off and the same cycle continues
Life is a phone conversation where u r trying to ..............



Rest in the next post!!

Thinking for quite a long time of trying something new, giving a new direction to my life.............can't think of anything interesting.....which will make me happy...so here i'm trying something for the first time....writing a blog which I know is not my cup of tea as I dnt think I can express my feelings well in words( I can express thru tears only :) ...that's a diff story) and i'm too shy about expressing my feelings in public......................bt still here I'm trying my hand at it...dnt knw whether i'll be regular or what I would like to write about..But I have made the start :)